Castor Oil

So on this particular night, I felt the nudge. I tore up an old cotton shirt, poured some castor oil on it, and laid it across my liver. No heating pad, nothing fancy—just me, some oil, and asking very matter of fact for God to help my body to release whatever it wanted while trying to tell my body it was safe and it could let whatever was causing my tension to leave. I know-super weird-but this is how it happened.

Within minutes I felt warmth. Then bubbling in my gut. A sensation in my left hip. Then a wave of heaviness through the back of my neck and into my head. What followed was an unexpected, profound emotional release. I actually had a moment of hearing a clear thought—as if someone was in my head saying something loud and clear. And it definitely matched up with what had been revealed to me about my infant years, years before. It was like my body let out a stored memory or imprint I didn’t even realize I’d been holding onto. Moments later, my left arm went super heavy, like a dead weight, and then it moved down and out my left ring and pinky finger.

I won’t get into all the details (those may come later), but let’s just say that one simple castor oil pack became the key that helped unlock something much deeper—something I now believe had been stored in my body since childhood. It connected dots I hadn’t even realized were part of the same picture: chronic tension in my gut, neck, and shoulders that led to headaches throughout childhood… and then, more recently, monthly cycle headaches that started about five years ago after a series of added stresses and traumatic circumstances (that I truly thought I had already moved past).

These headaches always felt like they were coming from knots running down my neck, back, hip, and sometimes even into my left foot. Now, looking back, I’m realizing my “bucket” had probably been full for a long time—and those added stresses just made it overflow. It triggered these headaches right when my body was already more sensitive: during my cycle, when it’s naturally trying to detox and reset. I can now see it wasn’t just physical… it was friction between my body trying to detox emotionally as well. Patterns I thought I had healed were still stored inside me.

My body had been trying to tell me: “Something in here wants out. But it’s trapped.” I had no clue this was even a thing. And that night with the castor oil pack? It’s like I finally got the wrapping off—and whatever memory or imprint that had been held in there got a chance to move.

And guess what—my period came a few days later, and for the first time in five years, I had no trace of a headache even wanting to start. The tension I usually had was not there anymore. If I tried to imagine it, I could feel a hint of it—but I was looking for it. It was seriously amazing.

The next morning, something strange but kind of amazing happened. My bowel movement had a distinct smell—like burnt hair or ashes. I’ve read that this can sometimes happen when your body is finally releasing deeply stored toxins, possibly ones that have been stuck for years. It made me wonder… could my body have been holding onto not just physical waste, but emotional imprints too? Is it possible that memories or imprints—even ones from your childhood that you cannot remember —can be stored in the body like that?

I don’t know for sure, but the timing felt way too aligned to ignore. I’m not claiming it’s all gone for good—but something definitely shifted. It didn’t even try to show up this cycle.

This wasn’t just about castor oil—it was about creating space for my body to release what it was finally ready to let go of. Castor oil was just a tool that helped move it at the right time. And in my case I feel like it released something from my liver but also did something within my nervous system to help my body release.